2014 – The Year of Change



It’s finally 2014. A new year and a new chance to do things right this time. Although it seems silly to wait until January 1st to pursue new hobbies, diets, exercising routines, etc. there is just something about the beginning of a new year that makes the future seem hopefully and anything attainable.

2013 as a whole was full of ups and downs. Very high highs and drastically low lows. There were times that I just wished time could stand still and yet pray for days to fly by. I married my best friend and we started the process to begin our family. I left one job to try something different. I managed to lose a little bit of weight only to gain some of it back during The Holidays, but I am ok with that.

Below is a list of my New Year’s Resolutions, although it is more a list of promises I’d like to keep for myself. Resolutions2

I’ve wanted to try my hand at yoga for sometime now because I find it fascinating. But, after watching a yoga video on Youtube a year or so ago and trying to bend and flex my pudgy body into even the simplest poses I gave up. Embarrassed in my own home, and I chalked it up to being a thin person’s exercise that I would try at a much later date when I wouldn’t get winded trying to touch my toes. Recently I found a few Instagram accounts of plus sized yogis bending and stretching and it gave me hope that even though I may be bigger than some, I could do yoga just the same. I’m excited to see where this new exercise takes me.

Another positive healthy promise I have for myself is to make better eating choices. Sometimes, ok most of the time, I make poor eating choices out of laziness or convenience. I’ve decided I want to try eating a Paleo diet and have done some research on what that will entail. I’m interested in the Paleo diet because it allows me to eat enough food without feeling restricted as long as the food isn’t processed or heavy on carbs. I think it’s something I can do and hopefully it will help me lose a few pounds to aid in the baby making process.

My third resolution to take better care of myself overall is a culmination of things. I tend to put others wants in front of my own, and I weigh people’s opinions of me heavily and I’m over it. At the end of the day I have to be the one living my life not letting others dictate it for me. Also, I’m lazy and don’t take the time to get pedicures or massages. I never meditate or reflect on a positive self image. I am excruciatingly hard on myself and I need to start practicing more self love and acceptance. I’m my worst critic and I need to start easing up so I can grow instead of harbor hurt feelings or notions of failure. I try to be humble but sometimes I should toot my own horn because not many people do it for me.

Lastly, I want to focus more on this blog, my writing and photography. I enjoy writing more than anything and I take pride in capturing moments on camera. I haven’t dedicated nearly enough time out of fear it won’t be good enough for readers or viewers. I hold myself back for reasons I’m still learning but I want to continue growing my writing abilities and photography skills.

Overall, this next year will be full of self growth and acceptance I’m finally ready for it. I’ve been putting it off for a long time because I’ve always thought that once I’m thin things will get much better and I can be a happier healthier me. But, why wait for something that may never come? I’m fully worth time and effort to be put back into myself that I put out to others.

I finally ready to say goodbye to 2013. Hello 2014.






Shout Out – Stephanie Corl, Photographer


When I started my first “business” at the young age of 12, I babysat and charged fair prices for not only watching their kid but I would pick up around the house too. Customer service has always been my strong suite. I made little business cards and passed them around to all the soccer moms at my little sister’s soccer practice. I put my cards in the mailboxes of all my neighbors in a two block radius. I even made little fliers and hung them at my school and local library. I had a few steady customers that paid me well to watch their kids and even told their friends about me. I was a busy little babysitter and damn proud of it.

When I started my second business making earrings I tried to do the same thing, but this time around there were already too many people doing the same craft and my products got over looked for the flashier lasses that pimped their wares for cheaper. Why am I going on about this? Becuase sometimes you need a little shout out, someone to pimp your services or products out to get people to notice you or your cause. I am all for helping someone out because I’ve been there and I know that sometimes you need a little love.

What helped with my babysitting business all those years ago was the fact that the parent’s that I babysat for spread the good word about me and that brought me business. When I was doing earrings I rarely, if ever, got some attention thrown my way and unfortunately that little sweatshop dream faded into the distance. There is only so much an individual can do to promote themselves and all businesses/companies need attention from outside sources.

I have a friend (well she’s more than a friend she’s my best friend in the whole entire world) and she is an aspiring photographer. Her name is Stephanie Corl. We’ve known each other since senior year of high school and our friendships has had it’s fair share of ups and downs, but I love her nonetheless. She’s a traveler of sorts and probably one the most amazing baristas you’ll ever meet. The reason I wanted to post about her is because she has always taken phenominal photographs. Mostly done with an iPhone but most recently after her grandfather passed she inherited his camera.
It’s a powerful machine that was meant for her to use to capture the beauty all around. Stephanie’s grandfather must have had the same notion that I always had that someday she would find her way to the calling of photography, her true talent at heart. Although she is currently only doing photography as a hobby I truly hope that someday soon she will use her keen eye for beauty to her advantage and share her services with others.

Justine and I even plan on making our way to the bay area so that she can photograph us for some impromptu engagement photos. Just some photos we can hang around the house. Hopefully others will see this post and encourage Stephanie and show her the support she deserves.

All of the photos in this post are her works. If you would like to contact her please leave a comment and I will contact you. You can check out some more of Stephanie’s photography here at her 500px page. Keep up the great work Steph.