Lez Be Honest

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Let’s talk about a subject near and dear to my heart.

Lesbians.

I’m a lesbian and a somewhat stereotypical one at that. I figured something was different with me at a relatively young age, but never could tell exactly what it was. I remember when I was in the fourth grade having the biggest crush on a girl that dressed and acted like a boy. Her name was Desiree, she was in the fifth grade and wore baggy jeans, baseball hats and sports Jerseys. She had her hair cut really short and spiked it with handfuls of gel just like every other guy in my grade.

I was infatuated with her, but felt really strange because every other girl my age was talking about kissing boys. So instead of expressing my want to kiss Desiree, I focused all my energy on trying to be like the rest of the girls. I over compensated and came off as “boy crazy” and liked all the popular boys every other girl liked while I silently ogled Desiree and the other tomboy-esque girls that came in and out of my school days.

Then in the seventh grade I went away to summer camp where I kissed a girl for the first time. It was a result of a dare but it meant more to me then when I was dared to kiss a boy from the opposing cabin. I didn’t tell any of my friends when I got back to school the following year but in the eighth grade I kissed another girl at a school dance. The boys in my grade loved it and she only kissed me for that very reason, to make the boys notice her.

During that summer I had an older boyfriend and just went along with the motions until my freshman year of high school. I had had a few boyfriends by then and clearly knew I really wasn’t attracted to guys my age or older but then I had my first full on girl crush. It wasn’t like another crush I had before and I knew then that I was probably a lesbian. She was a senior in my debate class and I had a sneaky suspicion that she batted for the girls team.

Needless to say nothing ever came of that situation and instead a few months later Justine came into my life and that sealed the deal. I knew that I was a lesbian and because I loved her with everything I had in my heart I couldn’t deny it or pretend to be like every other girl I knew.

I’m sure my mom has read through this post and may be upset but hopefully there will be more people out there that enjoyed this post because it might just be a retelling of their own story. I’m proud to be a lesbian and quiet honestly I love and support other lesbians.

Big, small, tall, thick, butch, stud, soft butch, femme, hippie, androgynous, Ellen DeGenerous, ummmm… there are so many others I can’t even remember right now. But, hopefully you get the point. Lesbians are pretty much amazing people.

As my favorite little beauty queen would say,

Cheers,
EA

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Django Date Night!

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It’s Friday and so you know what that means ladies and gents – tonight is DATE NIGHT! For those of you that are parents who don’t have babysitters or are dateless you can live vicariously through me via this post. Let’s begin shall we? I believe we shall.

Although Justine and I will be partaking in the traditional “Dinner and a Movie Date” tonight will be a little different. Being that we are the standard “Butch and Femme” lesbian couple and Justine presumes the boy role in our relationship, she usually takes me out on a date. Tonight it’s my turn and I’m taking her out.

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I’m wearing the above outfit on our date: my brand new amazing Old Navy sweater that I received as a Christmas gift, my over-sized Minnie Mouse t-shirt from Disneyland, a pair of black leggings and my favorite warm snuggly boots from Target. The perfect laid back outfit for a laid back date night.

First we’ll be headed to an awesome little restaurant called Buckhorn Grill. Some coworkers introduced me to this place last week and it was pretty delicious. The tri-tip sandwich was mouthwatering and even though I ordered the smaller sandwich it was super filling. I hope Justine enjoys this place and hopefully it won’t be as packed as it was last Friday at lunchtime.

After dinner we’ll make our way to the local movie theater to see Django Unchained. I’ve heard plenty of good things about this movie and I’m actually really excited to see it. I haven’t exactly asked Justine if she wanted to see it but since I’m the one doing the wine-ing and dining I think I get to choose the movie. That’s how it works isn’t it?

On a side note I’ll probably be posting a “Movie Review Monday” post about this movie so keep a lookout.

What are your plans for tonight?

Cheers,
EA

Rebooting – My Juice Fast Adventure – Day 1

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Well, well, well. What do we have here? Erika fell for another diet fad? Of course! A few weeks ago my mom insisted that I watch the movie “Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead.” I caved in and watched it. Then I watched it again with Justine and decided that I would take the plunge and begin juice fasting. I came up with a plan and on Black Friday I went out and bought myself a brand new juicer.

I gave myself a good solid week of being a fatty and eating whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. Saturday evening was our engagement dinner to which I engorged myself to top capacity. Yesterday I had my last hooray eating a deliciously cheesy, melty, greasy, cheeseburger and fries after consuming two cinnamon buttered rolls from Texas Roadhouse. I had a good run.

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This morning I woke up excited and a little overwhelmed, got ready for work and juiced my breakfast and lunch. The picture above is my “Breakfast” Mean Green Juice. I accidently added too much ginger to this one, but now I know how much too much is. Originally I felt optimistic about the entire process I have started. This is an outstanding chance to start over. Really detox and get myself clean. I’ve been eating so much garbage I know my body needs this.

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I’m not wearing makeup today because I wanted to give my face a breather. Plus I wanted to show my true emotions of the moment. I feel miserable. It’s only been twelve and a half hours and already I’m feeling starved. I have a headache, fatigue and irritability. I can only imagine that this is how drug addicts and alcoholics feel while there are rehab but unfortunately I’m not at some plush resort in a comfy bed sweating it out. I’m sitting at work trying to stay busy and keep my mind off of wanting to eat the entire left side of a McDonald’s menu.

No one said this is going to be easy and I’m only have way through day 1. God help me.

Cheers,
EA

Nine Years and Six Months

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“The future for me is already a thing of the past –
You were my first love and you will be my last” – Bob Dylan

We met when we were young. I was fifteen and she was seventeen turning eighteen. We hid our love, or so we thought, for years from others but reminded each other daily. I have never been so close to another person in my whole entire life and although many thought what we share was momentary and would fade with time has only grown stronger.

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While others gave up on their journeys and have grown accustomed to failing or giving up, we continue on. At first we were against the odds, people doubted, we fought more than we should have but it gave us perseverance. The beginning was tough.

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There were times when we both gave up. Distance drove us apart. But those times we weren’t together were only passing moments because we always found our way back to one another. There were times when I hated her and when she hated me. Times when either one of us wanted nothing more than to throw in the towel and wish it all way.

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A few times money got the best of us and drove us apart. We let little fights turn into full fledged wars and we wouldn’t talk to each other for days. But through it all we’ve managed and we communicate on another level. Many people believe that we are still young and don’t know any better. We both know they’re wrong.

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We have had our fair share of rough times. We’ve seen the good and the bad. We share more memories of pleasant times when we were both content with life. It’s those things that we cherish and remember best.

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In our nine and half years we’ve already accomplished so many milestones. Graduations,  God children, puppies, buying our first home and our engagement to list a few.

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When Justine kneeled down and proposed at Disneyland it only confirmed more, if that is possible, that I’m meant to be with her for the rest of my life. This picture, as horrible quality as it may be, doesn’t do justice to the amount of sheer joy and admiration I had at that very moment in time.

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Justine, I love you more than words can express, more than stars in the galaxy, more than life itself. Six more months until the rest of our lives.

Happy nine years and six months.

Love always and forever,
Erika Ashley

Hey There Honey Boo Boo

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I really have to stop this disappearing thing, I mean really. Anyways, during my prolonged hiatus a lot has changed.

For starters I’ve gone to Disneyland, twice. Justine and I renewed our annual passes so we took the time to escape from the day to day and head down to our Happy Place for a weekend at a time. Justine loves the Pixar movie Cars & Cars 2, so we were obliged to visit Cars Land now that it is open in Disney California Adventure. It was simply amazing, plus we got to wear our matching Disney t-shirts.

Also while I was gone I baked a little bit, a bunch of mini apple pies here and a batch of banana bread muffins there.

We sent out our Save the dates and I finally stopped gnawing at my stubby finger nails and let them grow. Thanks to Pinterest and Instagram I was addicted to changing my nail polish every few days or so. Unfortunately a little over two weeks ago I started to chew my nails again. But, I know I can stop again and I will.

I got a new job. After being a college graduate for a little over two years I finally earned a job where I can start my career doing what I went to school to do. I have a title and I’m finally salaried. I feel so grown up and so far I’m enjoying the environment and challenges it brings. The only downside is that I work full time now and barely have time to bake or run The Beast Bakery. Frustrating to say the least but at the current moment we need a stable income so that we can have our wedding and pay the bills.

 

On a lighter note, I dressed like a Zombie for Halloween. It was a little last minute but I think I pulled it off pretty well.  My new co-worker turned me on to a new craft which I have began to practice and master. I love learning something new and it doesn’t help that it can actually come in handy some day.

Justine’s cousin invited me to vend at her Annual Holiday Home Boutique. It was fun and my mom attended with me and it brings me great joy to spend time with her.

Overall, I’ve been living life and trying to stay on the brighter side of life instead of dwelling on the negative. I’m not going to sweat the small stuff and continue to persevere. One day I’ll have my bakery one way or another. In the mean time you should head on over to The Beast Bakery’s Facebook page and take a gander at what I’m offering.

Holiday Gift Baskets anyone?

Cheers,
EA

Plan B 2.0 – Virtual Baking. What?!

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The Beast Bakery didn’t go as planned. Yea we know already. So what is a little baker to do? How does a baker bake without a bakery? How many times can I use the word ‘bake’ in a paragraph. Or hell a blog post?! A butt load so get ready.

Due to the fact that there is no real bakery, The Beast Bakery instead will be a virtual bakery. A what? I will bake from little kitchen here at my little house in my little town. Instead of striving for an unattainable physical location, the use of my very own kitchen will do. I mean it has done so well since I began so it will have to do for the immediate future.

Also, since I won’t be driving around peddling baked goods to cookie fiends, I’m going to be teaching you, my lovely readers, how to bake, decorate and DIY the hell out of some baked goods. All you have to do is check back to the blog every now and again for all the new wonderfulness that is planned.

Deal? Deal. I’d shake on it but I don’t know where your hand has been, so we’ll fist bump instead. *fist bump*

Now on to the good stuff. What are you in for you ask?

 

My original recipes, recipes that have been passed down to me and even some I’ve altered over time.

 

 

Step by step guides on how to bake, decorate, and DIY all kinds of sugary goodness.

Everyone LOVES Pinterest. I bet you’ve seen tutorials and recipes on Pinterest tried them at home and been like, “WTF. My cupcakes look like dog poop. Why don’t they look like these beautiful masterpieces on Pinterest?!” I’ll be reviewing pins and tell you what’s really up and how to tweak specific pins to work best for you, a real person.

I’m getting married (civilly unioned actually since same-sex marriage isn’t “legal” in the great state of California) in less than 9 months so be prepared for wedding updates and some other daily shenanigans.

Excitement cannot define how I feel about The Beast Bakery 2.0. PLUS, by mid-October there might be a Cookie Club you can sign up for to receive a “Cookie of the Month.” Hot damn! I’m in business again!

I want to hear from you- Are you in? Are you excited about the awesomeness headed your way?

Cheers,
EA

Wedding Wednesday – Caterer Tasting #2

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I hope everyone had a fantastica Fourth of July. As I type this dozens of bangs and pops are going off all around our neighbor and surprisingly our little pups are lounging sans barking. This is probably because we have the Science Channel cranked up to drown out the sounds of the firecracker warfare going on outside.

Last Wednesday Justine and I headed out to our second caterer tasting. This time we ventured to South Sacramento to give All Seasons All Reasons a try. I was pleased to find that All Seasons All Reasons (ASAR) was a preferred caterer for our venue because since I’ve started my wedding vendor research they have been consistently the highest rated caterer in Sacramento. I mean really, go check out their 14 five star reviews on Yelp! Even the previous caterer we had a tasting with gave props to ASAR. Needless to say I was excited to get this show on the road.

When we arrived we were greeted by Vanessa, our main point of contact prior to the tasting and Monty, the co-owner and head of the company. Their office/tasting room was a little snug but comforting. Shortly after being seated we then met the head chef, Josh, who also co-owns the businesses and rocked a 49er hat (which scored him major points with Justine). Everyone was so friendly and genuinely wanted to be there impressing us. One thing that I noticed with the other caterer was our meeting seemed like just another tasting appointment and with ASAR they went above and beyond to customize the experience for us. They even drafted up a fancy menu for our tasting. 10 points Gryffindor.

After the introductions and pleasantries, Josh got to cookin’ and Monty got to pouring the wine and we continued gabbing on about what we want. We started with a cheese platter with fresh fruit and then a fresh garden salad. The dressings were made from scratch and the house italian was zesty and had a pleasant tang. Justine really enjoyed the homemade ranch dressing.

Next up were the side dishes- grilled veggies and fettucini Alfredo. The veggies were perfectly charred and Justine is uber picky about fettucini Alfredo and she admitted to me on the way home that it was the best pasta she has ever had. I was pretty blown away myself.

We then had an herb crusted chicken (top), garlic mashed potatoes, grilled tri-tip, and a grilled chicken. This shit was mouth-wateringly amazing. Oh my God. I kept eating the mashed potatoes and I had to literally pry the fork out of my hand to stop. The tri-tip was almost as good as my dad’s tri-tip… almost. 😉

At the end of the tasting Monty, Justine and I sat around the table talking about what we expect and what we want for about a half hour. We continued making plans and getting great feedback. Monty made us feel at home and comfortable enough to express our concerns but he reassured us that weddings are stressful but well worth it. He even mentioned that if we don’t choose their services he will still be more than happy to assist us in any way he can.

Overall this company seems amazing, the food was outstanding, and even though they are a little over our budget we made our decision seconds after leaving. We have decided to go with All Seasons All Reasons as our caterer and we couldn’t be happier.

On to the next task, picking a baker and dj.

Cheers,
EA