Doing The Most

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I am well known for “doing the most” when it comes to pretty much everything. For years, I’ve put a lot on my plate in every aspect of the cliché. From going to college full time and working full time while trying to start a craft business after hours.  To having about a trillion tiny details for my wedding and hand-making almost everything myself. To even now when I’m trying to get knocked up while only having a few short months left on my parent’s awesome healthcare coverage and starting a new career opportunity.

Seriously, I have to stop. But, how does one stop trying to conquer the world without feeling hopeless or like a failure? During the holiday season I do the most by hand-making most gifts and baking for an army of gift baskets. This year I’ve decided to cease handmade gifts  and instead headed to big box stores and gave my money to “The Man.” I also made the decision that since Justine and I will be traveling so close to Christmas I would for-go giving the baked gift baskets.

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Not making gifts was tough because I do enjoy making things and adding the personal touch to each individual present. But, spending money instead of time did take a small chip off the block. However, with the gift baskets, it’s been a tradition for me to spend an entire weekend elbows deep in batter and chocolate; creating delicious morsels to give to adoring family and friends. This part is much more difficult for me because I too love baking.

Even though I’m excited to not do the most, I feel like it’s not me and not fully Christmas. Hopefully, in the new year I won’t feel like I have to conquer the world and instead focus on just myself and what’s important to me.

As 2013 comes quickly to a close I have been reflecting much more on who I am currently and who I want to be.

What about you?

Cheers,
EA

Holidays & Ahas

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I’m the kind of gal that loves “The Holidays.” No, I’m not referring to an indie rock band you probably haven’t heard of, but the time of year between the Wednesday before Thanksgiving up until New Years Day.

It gives me a sense of comfort and joy. I love the cold weather and the emails about sales every other day in my inbox. The fact that everyone just accepts that they are probably going to gain at least 5lbs. I especially love the music. This year I started listening to Christmas music almost immediately after Halloween. I paced myself though, by only allowing myself to listen to an hour of the Michael Buble Christmas station on Pandora. (Which you should probably add to your Pandora stations if you haven’t already.)

 

This holiday season I will probably listen to these albums over and over and of course many more not shown. My Pandora stations will range from jazzy-holiday mixes to pop versions of Santa Baby and with every song my soul with glow with Christmas cheer.

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On Black Friday I partook in the shopping festivities however unlike last year I actually slept until 8am, rolled out of bed and then went shopping. I wasn’t about to jump head first into the craziness alone two years in a row. I’ll wait until next year when hopefully I have a shopping buddy to go with me. Once shopping was over I busted out the good ‘ole Christmas box, dusted it off and began to decorate our humble little home, while listening to Christmas music. Duh. I remembered that the following weekend I had opened a bottle of my favorite wine and didn’t want it to go to waste. So, I had a glass. Or two. Or three.

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Justine and I went out and snagged a pretty cute tree and I dressed it up in our Christmas best. Zoey thinks it’s the most amazing thing she’s ever seen because unlike the last few years we didn’t put it up on a side table so the dogs can’t get to it. Instead this year we placed it on the floor and so far so good. We still have a month until Christmas so believe me I’ll be watching those bad pups like a holiday hawk.

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Enough with the holidays already, let’s move on to the aha moments I had this weekend. On Saturday evening Justine and I headed over to our close friends, Adam & Laura’s new house. We ate, drank and played board games. As the night progressed we were tipsy and dancing and talking about life. Even while being fairly intoxicated I had an “aha! moment.” I realized a lot about how I’ve been living my life in beast mode. Head down, moving full force forward not taking time to actually enjoy being in my twenties.

My teenage years were a blur because all I wanted to do was get out of high school, get out of college, and be an adult. Well here I am. I’m an adult and what have I been doing? Trying to conquer every major life event so that I can feel accomplished and successful. But, I haven’t taken a moment to step back and think about how far I have come and reflect on what I have accomplished.

 

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Being 24 years old, I’ve already done so much and I have a lot to be thankful for and proud of. I need to slow my roll and enjoy the little things.

I’m thankful for everything I have and for all of you.

Cheers,
EA

She Put a Ring On It

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For years I have dreamt of the day Justine would propose to me. Let’s get things straight, she has proposed to me before on our 5 year anniversary, but the time wasn’t right. We were both still young, dumb, and in debt to our eyeballs. Not to mention my parent’s weren’t too fond of our relationship as I had only came out to them a year before. I was 20 and she was 23 and we were rushing things plus she had proposed right after a fight. Needless to say, the ring went back to the jewelers and feelings were hurt.

Fast forward 3 and half years to December 25th 2011, yes just a few weeks ago, Justine and I drove down to Anaheim to celebrate Christmas with my family at Disneyland. We opened gifts on Christmas Eve and Justine said that one of my gifts didn’t make it in time for the holiday so I’d get it when we got back home. I was hoping she bought me a Kindle Fire because I had been raving about getting one for a few weeks.

Christmas morning we woke up, got ready and headed to Disneyland. Once we got inside the resort we decided to take pictures in front of the Mickey Mouse topiary garden thing at the front gates. Justine and I stood together, took a picture and then my family joined in, we took another picture. As we were about to leave Justine suggested we take a better picture of just the two of us. I agreed thinking the picture would make a great Christmas card for the next year.

Then it happened.

We were about to pose when she turned to me and said that the gift that was on the way wasn’t really on the way. She pulled out a small silver box, told me how much she loved me and that she had gotten permission from my parent’s to ask for my hand. She got down on one knee and asked me to marry her. The entire time this was going on I was in shock. I had no idea what was going on because I’m usually 3 step ahead of her and can guess my gifts or surprises way in advance. But, this time she got one over on me and boy am I glad she did. I started crying and said, “Yes of course.” We hugged and I continued crying. The deep sobbing cry that you only cry when someone you love passes or you’re too overjoyed to do anything else.

The rest of the day was a blur because I was too busy trying to not cry due to happiness and the day was amazing to say the least.

Now that we are engayged my mind is consumed with wedding plans and details. I’m excited out of my mind about what is to come. As a result this blog will more than likely be updated more frequently and the theme will change from everyday living to wedding planning. I’m pumped.

Cheers,

EA